Already broke the news on chat, but I got a phone call yesterday that I was the accepted candidate for the job at the makerspace I applied to. Doing general admin work and help keeping the project running.

I fucking hated the hiring process. The CV and motivation letter writing was okay - it was an exercise I haven't done in a while and got a lot out of doing that step. Interview was a bit unsettling, but it was fine. But then there was a second follow up interview, and i then had to write them a summary of what i said in the follow up since most of the board was not able to attend that one. And then they spent 20 days deciding who is the right candidate. Nevermind the fact I know all of the people involved, some of them quite closely.

It made me acutely aware of the fact I really hate leaving decisions that affect me into someone else's hands. I legit thought of pulling out my candidature before getting an answer, just to get my agency back. The waiting game was torture. It also made me think about how I would handle things if I was rejected. And I don't know because it practically never happened. School applications or jobs, I only ever apply to one and get in. Which makes me wonder if it's because I only play it super safe? Or that I just know very well what I want? Or that i'm a dumbass for not playing the field and evaluating my options more broadly? Maybe it's something I need to re-evaluate and do differently in the future. But it's a little hard to change when my current strategy has generally served me well and I have no way of knowing what I might have missed out on.