It's been a rotten couple of months, rife with personal failure everywhere I looked. My research is moving at a snail's pace. The social life is somehow more pathetic than back when the only person I casually spent time with was my dormmate. Aside from TAing, the thing closest to giving me any fulfillment these days, I've effectively taken myself off everything. Team conferences and coursework get 'brain on autopilot' treatment (nobody noticed), my thesis stuff is on pause for literature review (nobody objected, and it's true anyway), and I'm gonna use this break to see if SSRIs will do anything in this setting beyond their current 'vision is kinda blurry, and I yawn all the fucking time'. Though, really, I don't think it's a chemical problem.