A few nights ago I had one of these dreams where you wake up and remember everything. Every single detail. And you can't shake it off.

I am supposed to swim in the olympics. I arrive late to the qualifiers. I enter the swimming pool and head to the obvious person in charge. She is an older lady, reminded me of McGonagall from Harry Potter in her looks, but not her vibe. I ask her whether I could still swim the qualifiers. She says I missed them but there is one last round happening for the womens qualifiers, I could just join that. So I take off my clothes and jump into the water and swim right next to the lane with the only swimmer, a 14 year old girl. We swim our round, the time is noted. We get out of the swimming pool. I head to the same older lady, asking "what next?". She tells me that I will be swimming later this evening, all the information needed are in this book. And she hands me a 300 page heavy brochure. "All you need is inside there, go find your dorms".

I make my way to the "dorms". It took me a while to get that, but using the brochure and asking around, I make it to the olympic village. I walk straight to what looked like "the dorms" only to notice that there is a huge party happening there. Not just there, everywhere around me. People were dancing to a weird tone of a flute I couldn't recognize. A girl named "Huda" (an arabic name btw) was playing the weird flute. And everytime she blew into it, everyone went mad. She seemed to be surprised about its effects but liked the attention, so she kept blowing into it and the people around continued dancing and drinking.

I tried to ask myself through the crown of people with the hopes that someone could tell me where my room is. But no one was interested in answering. They were too engaged with what was happening around them to even notice me. After trying a few more times I give up. I sit down, in the middle of the crowd, on some bench. Left and right are people dancing. On the bench, behind the bench, everyone. It feels crowded, even though we are outside.

I try to concentrate on the brochure. The info is supposed to be there. So I go through it. Once, twice, three times. Over and over I try to find the pages that tell me where I find my dorm and when I am going to swim again. I keep repeating the procedure. Keep getting distracted by what is happening around me. At some point, after what feels like the 1000s iteration, the brochure starts to lose its binding. First single pages and then complete parts of chapters start to fall out. I try to collect the falling sheets and put them in order, all of that while still sitting on the bench with the party going around me...

I keep on trying. Until at some point the whole thing just falls into single sheets and from my hands onto the ground.

I gave up. And without much options left. I dive into the madness around me.

P.S: I started growing a weird patchy beard.