I'm a militant agnostic, I don't know and neither do you. I don't know why this position bothers atheist so much, but it seems to. They like to argue against my position like I'm a true believer and I usually say "you're right none of that shit makes any sense at all, that's why I don't believe it." Then construct grand arguments about why the idea of believing in a god is absurd and I tell em, "cool bro, I don't believe in a god either." They try again, belittling more shit I absolutely don't believe in and I try to push the conversation toward some other subject. They think I'm on the brink of taking up the torch and if they only pushed a little harder I would join the ranks of people who vehemently oppose the religious narrative against the possibility of a higher power. I'm already a soldier against dogmatic bullshit and what they are arguing makes no difference to my outlook or willingness to oppose said bullshit. I am just not willing to say that there is no chance that the world wasn't created by a higher power, or that I am just a consciousness trapped in a box by an evil demon, or a brain that is part of a science experiment. All those options seem to still be open to me, but I suspect that none of them are true, and that I really have no idea how or if there is a why that I am here.

The general scientific narrative of evolution, the big bang and most other mainstream scientific explanations for the hows and whys seem extremely plausible, and I actually have FAITH that they will only increase in their ability to explain how the world works. Scary to have to just have faith in that kind of thing, but scientific method is a pretty sound framework for exploring the world and I don't have the time, money or in some cases the mental acuity to confirm all this stuff for my self.

Often atheist seem pretty dogmatic, I find their self assurance that they have all the answers annoying and arrogant. Most the time they are willing to give a bit of ground, which more than I can say for your average religious fundamentalist.