finals tomorrow, HS graduation in a week

for a minute it felt weird to think about but it'll probably just be the same

suicide is pretty much the only thing that makes high school troubles serious because other than that, if you're rich and white, you've pretty much got nothing to worry about, so if you can't deal with whatever it is you can't deal with, you'd still end up alright except if you can kill yourself

i've always kind of thought that because the advice people'll give you for dealing with things when you're young is "you're young, things get better" but quite a few people can't last that long

i think we need some better short term advice

it was almost freeing to get diagnosed because it made me think "oh, maybe i'm not just incompetent" and i haven't had any suicidal moments lately which is nice

this sounds more grim than i want it to, but i've been thinking about how when college students kill themselves, a disproportionate amount of them seem to hang themselves in their dorm rooms, and i question how tall some of these rooms are, because when i was looking at colleges last year, none of them had enough airspace for that

i hope i don't get a really tall room