Is that one specific creativity really worth condemning yourself to death for?

Even if - let's say - you were a writer, loved writing, and could only write while drunk -- would you, sober you, take a step back, look at this situation, and decide, "You know, it's the only choice I can live with: writing is so important to me, and nothing else can ever satisfy me and fulfill me and make me happy the way writing can, so i'm willing to give up basically everything else I could get out of life including my health in order to keep doing it. I'm willing to be drunk daily so that I can fulfill myself through writing" ? Like really? writing is so important you don't mind not being able to legally drive by midday on the daily?

it lowers inhibitions : it makes people believe in themselves. it doesn't alter their abilities just their confidence

if anything i think the increased creativity is a coping mechanism

and if your coping mechanism is more important to you than, you know, living a life where you don't have to have coping mechanisms....

well then you're going to keep hurting yourself so you can keep on with your idiotic stupid beautiful coping because you have the wrong priorities in life and like i said. probably a martyr complex