I decided when my hair started going grey (apparently actually white ) that I would just go for it when most of my hair changed and that I wouldn’t spend a sizeable chunk of my life worrying about roots. That day is quickly arriving significantly earlier than most people start loosing any colour and I’m actually pretty okay with it. Maybe if I was 20 years older I might try to push it a bit but if all goes according to plan I’ll have like at least 60 more years to go. 60 years of trying to hide white roots with dark brown ? Nah, fuck that, it looks so much worse than just going white and adding a little colour here and there. With white I’ve got a blank slate that realistically I could just dye brown any day. Which has me wondering what this all means, because clearly it’s about more than hair.
Aside from that I realized I’m a perfectionist which is screwing up my life, and had a setback with the concussion recovery. It’s all okay though, I started meditating since it’s good for the brain, will get back into yoga once I’m able too, and saw four different doctors who all validated my concerns every time I went back. That now out numbers the crappy doctors I’ve seen and this concussion might just save my life one day when I go to a doctor instead of decide I hate them.