Let's sum this up. You say you have the following:

Pervasive need for approval; grandiose dreams; need for immediate gratification (poor impulse control); compulsive need for control except in certain specific situations where giving up that control becomes erotic; sense of incompleteness; unrealistic expectations of a dream woman to compensate for lack of interaction/confidence with real women; need for others to validate self instead of being able to rely on self's validation of self.

I'm not going to bother to tell you to truncate and google these results; I have a fair idea of what'll show up. (Cut out the adjectives and modifying/specifying phrases.)

Sounds like you need to get yourself to a therapist, man, cuz otherwise, shit is not sounding very pretty for your personality.

Yeah but sorry bro what you describe is basically textbook fucking DSM-V symptoms of narcissistic personality disorder. Even if that doesn't jive with you check out the other 3 personality disorders (antisocial borderline histrionic) - they share a lot of traits. But yeah. You are saying you're a narcissist here, just a narcissist who's aware of it.

But clearly still OK posting shit tons.