The love I have for my fish is a strange and different kind of love. I have indeed turned him down in the past because I did not think that what he was offering was what I wanted - and there have been other times I have tried to take that back. He is a very, very talented, passionate, and brilliant poet, and I am certain that his writing is a central reason for how I feel about him. I saw him 4th of July weekend and he told me, he thinks he is going to marry his girlfriend. This does not surprise me. It was clear to me the two of them had a different connection that he'd had with other women. I don't care about dating him. I just want him to always be in my life, at least a little bit. Occasionally we exchange poems. He was accepted at a prestigious MFA program with full funding and a TA, he starts this fall. I am very glad for him - and oh, so very envious. :)