Yes, it is and it's also the kind of thing were I think a lot of people wouldn't really understand/think it's heartless/be rude about it.

Sorry about this whole wall of text - when I respond to you it always seems to go from me talking about whatever you were talking about to just ranting about myself for several paragraphs.

I am also the type that tells themselves that they are super happy alone. I'm not. I am however pretty sure that dating someone in my class/year would be boring/stupid/make me act like I do not want to act for approval that is meaningless anyway. I was kind of liking a guy and we'd even gone for a really long walk and talked and got along. Then he shared some anti-feminist gamergate stuff. Yeah, that is not happening.

The worst is that people my age have gotten engaged. This is the age were people start pairing up into serious relationships. And I'm still single. (The legal age (for sex) in Sweden is 15 and my friends are 1-2 years older than me so not as stupid as it sounds. The friend who has gotten engaged was 15 at the time. You can't get married until 18 thankfully)

I say I've never had a boyfriend/girlfrien SO constantly when I think about it I was actually "married" to a guy for several years. I even got a ring. (Those years were grade 2-5, I was 7-10. I had a sister wife, but I was obviously the favorite.)