I don't particularly feel like rebelling against the system I'm in, because I know how to use it to my advantage.

It's funny because like, being white in America, I unknowingly and uncontrollably use the existing racist political/"justice" system to my advantage (simply by existing and by looking the way I do) but I still think it's a disgrace, feel guilt over it, and wish the system was less fucked.

I've said it here before and again: there are days I haven't been charged with crimes that could have waylaid my career and most things I care about, simply because I am a young white attractive female. If I'd been a young black male? Oh, honey. Bye job, hello charges.

I've wondered if I should fuck myself over as protest against what I'm taking advantage of: you know, like if the police question me about something, be honest instead of avoid trouble. I've mostly concluded that's not the answer.

But if in the future America's race problem is solved and maybe that means more charges and convictions for whites, potentially including me? I'm okay with that.

I just think that just because something doesn't harm you doesn't mean that it's okay.