From your perspective–a rational one– you're absolutely right. So I can't refute what you're saying, and by all means I am not dismissing it. I'm aware of the very likely and very serious state I could be left in when it's all over. That's part of what is keeping me on the fence at the moment. So thank you, but there's a second part to it all where I feel, just like white said, those who have gone through it all do not regret it. It shapes them for who they are and that can be really, really valuable. It's a strong fuckin' mold, man. But I understand and appreciate your words, thank you, I'm absolutely considering all of it.
But on a side note: What's wrong with that? I have yet to see a stronger bonding agent. Don't just think suffering, but survival as well; victory.Your companionship and camaraderie with your fellow soldiers stems from your shared suffering.