This article hits home, pretty hard.

I wouldn't say that I went to a university that is on the same level as the Ivy League, but I have no idea what the level there is.

I know that I haven't been taught to think, but taught to function. My studies were unflexible 5.5 years that should prepare us to the work we are going to do. The patterns were similar, "If this happens, then do this", all the time.

colleges are producing a large number of very smart, completely confused graduates. Kids who have ample mental horsepower, an incredible work ethic and no idea what to do next

And that is how I feel too. We were 50 students, all A+ students, put into one semester and pushed through our classes. There were brilliant minds, creative people, weird and interesting people. But did we benefit from the "diversity" in class? never.

Most of the people studied for themselves. Discussions didn't happen, questions were never asked (most of the people were worried that their questions were "stupid"). And so we just went on and on, working to fit the system.

Some continued in the system, not thinking much about what comes next, simply doing what was expected of them (my semester -> start a PhD right away or join a company).

Internships abroad were done for the CV. Good publishing labs were favored (maybe I will publish too?!) it is sad.

I feel confused without any sense of orientation. I feel like contacting MAPS and ask them if they have any use for a life scientist that is fascinated by psychedelic drugs.

But what will my parents say?