I just returned from a 2-month trip around europe. It is the first time I feel something like a traveling burnout. The last 2 weeks of the trip I lost my motivation to explore and preferred to chill and spend time with the friends I was visiting.

After traveling for the past 5 months (2.5 months in Israel before that) I am back at the point I was before travels and have similar feelings to what ButterflyEffect mentioned in his recent post. I feel like I am lost, without any "plan". My aunt said that she feels that I am some kind of flying ghost who has many ideas and thoughts but can't set his mind on one thing. And that I need a partner to "earth" me, whatever that means...

But its true, I have no clue what I want to do and where I want to do it. I want to do a PhD, because I want to continue learning. But I don't know which subject its going to be. Around 1.5 years ago I got interested in psychedelic substances. How they look like, where they bind, what they cause, why we see the effects of each substance etc.

This could also be an interesting research subject. But I am afraid to do a PhD in this subject as it is my hobby and it has a bad reputation in the field. Additionally, my parents would probably freak out :D

Additionally, I have a feeling that I am alone. Not lonely, but alone. I have many friends, but no one to really be on my side. Doesn't have to be a girlfriend, just a partner, or somebody I could go through life with. I used to have that feeling with the friends I had in Israel, the ones that I grew up with. Before university, I only had those 2 friends, and were very close. Now, I have many friends, but I don't feel as close to any of them... Anyone else had this feeling?

Oh, I am not alone with the bartender? forgot that...