I'm very happy to say I got back with my lovely girlfriend after a month of crippling loneliness, and am more afraid than ever to ruin it :D For some reason she decided to forgive me for a particular mistake I've made, and after trying to push her away for good in fear of starting some sort of shitty cycle, she insisted that things were okay. So things are looking up now... until I remember that she is 6,000 miles away and my physical desires are having an awful lot of trouble following the social structures of commitment, in a situation where I can't touch the damn woman until this summer when I fly to visit. Otherwise, I'm kinda workin through taking things easy instead of just telling everyone else to, and paying more attention to myself than the many people who have decided that I must support them unconditionally with nothing in return. That got frustrating. It's good to be here again, peace homies 0(o_o)0