I've been struggling with this concept for a while now. A while back I was someone who just did what was expected and kind of "arrived" where I am. It was basically A->B->C. Go to school, do homework, repeat. Apply to college, take college classes, and then here I am. Now that I have to figure out what I really want to do, I'm stumped.

I started thinking about what I should do. After about a year of thinking and figuring out shit about life, I've come up and started bumping against the logical conclusion: nihilism. No purpose, no reason. Everything will disappear, everyone will be dead, and nothing will stay. There's literally no reason to do anything.

But I sure as hell don't want to be those guys. So what should I do? I've currently applied an arbitrary goal to my life. But I'm having motivation problems. I'd like to be one of those people who strive to accomplish their "goal" but I'm having problems coming up with my own and having the proper motivation to push myself to it.

And just like that, I fall back into the safety net of reddit and hubski. And continue my grind. Fuck.