Let it out. Alright, here it goes: I have made certain choices: 1. To get married
2. To have a professional career with certain earnings goals
3. To have children I don't regret any of those choices, I really don't. Most certainly I don't regret being a father. It is literally the most amazing thing I have ever done. That said, there are SO MANY PATHS available to all of us that it's hard not to have some regrets. I regret ever having a serious, no that's the wrong word... "long term" relationship prior to meeting my wife. I wish I had spent ALL of that time prior making music and art and courting and sleeping with many awesome, interesting and gorgeous women. I regret not realizing how capable, appealing and talented I was when I was younger. I'd like to shake that guy and say, "dude, wake the fuck up, you are in the prime of your life. Quit being insecure, all of these people around you that you think have it figured out are just as confused and awkward as you are." I regret not spending more time with my siblings when we were all under one roof. I regret ever putting down my guitar because I didn't feel I was "good enough." I regret not appreciating my family dog more. There are some regrets that I have that I'll save for me and a few select confidants. Truth is, I don't have any HUGE regrets. I made some bad decisions, but those decisions have informed who I am now. We are a culmination of our choices. Choose wisely people :)
I didn't mean to make you cry kimberly :( It sure is difficult saying goodbye to someone you love. The thing about that moment that was equally as painful was that I was basically saying goodbye to my childhood. He brought out the kid in me and had been my companion since I was a boy, I would guess that for many people there are clear moments when they feel like childhood was behind them, well that was mine. I have two dogs now and while I love them dearly, I question the logic in our decision to get them. If you are a responsible dog owner, and we are, then caring for them is a LOT of work. We have a vizsla and an english pointer and they both require a lot of exercise. They're awesome, but we just don't have the time in our lives that we once did.