Lifting sounds like so much fun from your perspective. And I'm just sitting here with my low weight, high rep sadness :[
Shame. Think of it this way, then: you're beating everyone who isn't doing any weight right now. If you measure your life from the successful people's, you'll always find yourself missing something, when in fact, the truth of what you have comes from what you had and what you gained. I came to call it "measuring from zero than from a hundred", referring to percentage of achieving some sort of an ideal that we chase blindly. It's not what we don't have that defines us - it's what we do have, and right now, you have it quite well, don't you?
What I left out was that my bench PR was half my squat, and that my squat form was appaling. Either the squat weight is too light to matter or my weak as shit ankles were in the way. Everyone in the gym sucks in their own special way. That said, eat more proteins and heavy reps will get better over time. It's the trendline that counts, not the outliers.