I fall under the "shy" category. For the majority of my life, I've been like that girl. Well.. except that I'm male, not female.

It seems like every conversation is like that. One word answers, maybe a few extras to pad it out. And when I finally can start talking and bring out the words, it's always some obscure topic that no one cares about. And they leave, never to speak to me again. It's awful.

That's why I stay online. For some reason, I find it much easier to say stuff. I can just say what I want, and then it's left to the internet.

As for relationships/dating... I haven't had much luck. I've only had three instances that are kind of similar. One was just a close friend. And the second was a fling at a school camp. Not really that great. The third one is kind of similar... I had an "online" girlfriend who I virtually/digitally married. In a game. We were kind of close though. Probably closer than I've been to most people I know.

I've always kind of related to the timid shy girl stereotype. In fact, so much that I started to find things like love shyness. Searching around also brings up what some people call "male lesbianism" where you associate/feel female, but are physically male and wish to stay that way (and are attracted to females).

Growing up, I thought that I'd like to date and be in a relationship with these types of people, but I soon recognized the people I was actually attracted to. Which is pretty much the exact opposite. The type of person who is outgoing and will drag you around if necessary.

The guy in the story doesn't quite match that, and thus the awkward silences appear. Unfortunately, there aren't many girls like that. And looking at myself (compared to others) it's hard to see why anyone would pursue me. Which makes it all the more depressing. Unless they have and I'm just oblivious to it all. sigh.