Going Home

I've been feeling ornery again these past couple of days. Going home is not good for my psyche, and I can't wait to have the "I don't plan on going home next Christmas but I will happily fly you out here" conversation in a few days. I have so much trouble spending that much time in an area and with some family who I hold immense amounts of resentment towards. It would be healthier to just let it go, but maybe I am not that strong of a person.

Physical Health

Which, speaking of that, this injury is driving me crazy because of how borderline it is. I can climb fine. I can run a bit, but every so often I'll take a step and feel pain or tightness. It's driving my crazy. That, and realizing some things that are wrong with my running form. Think after I submit this post I'm going to call a PT to set-up an appointment for after the holidays.

Relationships

In the midst of a long conversation with a longtime friend on relationships and how I haven't really been in one in 3.5 years now. Sure, there's been a lot of short term dating between then and now, but no this is my girlfriend / you are my boyfriend kind of nonsense. The running, hiking, etc. are all more fulfilling than the repeated cycle of dating, sex, losing interest, or them losing interest in me. Already spent February - July this year actively opting out of dating, but maybe I need to do it for a longer period of time or something. I don't know. All I know is I'm not finding what I've been looking for, or I'll find it, but the person is already in a committed relationship.

I haven't progressed as far along as I had thought, Hubski.