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Daffodil  ·  1102 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: You Won’t Remember the Pandemic the Way You Think You Will

The things I am going to remember most about the pandemic aren't even the shared notable memories kleinb100 mentioned (Drink bleach George Floyd, Hunter's Laptop, "Will you shut up man," January 6) because honestly they weren't the most notable things I experienced. I'm going to remember the pandemic for the ways I was affected by it, which no one else can relate to, which really proves the point of the article.

I'll remember watching my partner slowly dying for 3 months, refusing to acknowledge that his condition needed emergency medical attention, because he was scared of going to the hospital. Not scared of the care or attention he would get at a hospital, but scared because the hospital is where people with covid are, and he didnt want to catch covid. He undoubtedly would not have got as sick if he had been scared of catching covid at a hospital.

Most of all I'll remember how the hardest part of my life was made worse by the restrictions of the pandemic. When my SO started vomiting blood and couldn't ignore any longer that something was wrong I wasn't allowed to go in the ambulance to the hospital with him. The ER let me come in for an hour, to bring his ID and contact his family but I remember them wheeling him to be admitted to the ICU and telling me I had to leave. I remember kissing his unconcious body goodbye with a mask still between my lips and his forehead, and not knowing what would happen.

I remember calling my family hours away. I was all alone in a new city. I couldn't call the hospital for information bc SO and I aren't married and HIPPA laws wouldn't let them tell me anything. I couldn't go home to my family because we couldn't risk getting each other sick, so I sat for 3 weeks in the deepest, loneliness depression of my life.

When SO woke up he was really confused. He lost a lot of blood and had been in a coma for a long time. He woke up during the peak of the BLM riots. What I will remember most about the riots, is SO telling me over the phone that they left the news on in his room, and he saw WWIII happening on the screen and he thought he had woken up at the end of the world.

Everything since then has been just a minor inconvenience. I'll just remember this pandemic as having made SO's medical episode so much harder to experience, and for causing us to live with his parents for a year to escape the hot-spot we were living in. Everything over the last 9 months has flown by.