I can see that you don't disagree with the idea of putting effort into doing better but disagree with the method. You advise "something every day" against brute force.

One thing I notice about myself is that I don't like incremental. I like to make big, fast. I like a challenge, and I'm willing to challenge myself. Clearly, "something every day" is how I got here, and I can see that it's working. My problem is not that I can't do it - it's that I want to see myself consciously jumping over my head because that's where the feeling of being in control over my fate is.

I know I'm not going to get everything - blackjack and hookers included - in just two months. What I can do is change the way I do things in way that would set up a foundation for doing even better later on. That is my goal. I'm going to challenge myself because I've seen what taking it easy does to me. Like I said in the post, I need to get something done about it - and I guess, I need to show myself that I'm capable in a way that would make it blatantly obvious.

Now, project management? I never thought about it that way. Could I maintain the project of challenging myself in a way that wouldn't burn me out? How could I maintain control through incremental changes?