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I think I have a lot of control. Short of quitting my jobs, I more or less control what happens in my free time, today or next month. It's just a lack of will. And imagination. That's the scariest part. The ideas that used to take such hold of me now seem... greyed out. Not greyed out by circumstances, but because the feedback I seem to be getting from the universe is so discouraging. And the fact that these discouragements seem so effective is even more discouraging. I don't know if that makes sense.
That said, I'm about to go on a run. I try to follow a rule that if my brain is sending me waves and waves of funk, to get up and move. It helps sometimes.