I think my quarter life crisis is really gaining speed lately. I recently decided lately that I'm going to make more of an effort to socialize and connect with people which is something I thought was hard for me. I realized more recently that their are definitely people in this world who do not think that is hard for me and tend to actually feel threatened by it. Now I don't even know. The concept that life doesn't just happen and we do in fact influence the world around us is really fucking with me lately. Like, I have a lot of personality traits that others must think I'm aware of but I have no idea. I'm a good leader but I figured that out after people were already following me so I have no idea what I did to make them do that and it's honestly terrifying. Same thing goes for basically everything, why am I good at this...am I secretly bad at it ? Why are you people talking to me ? Where am I ? I'm starting to think that basically everybody else knows me better than I know myself. The 20's have been a roller coaster and I'm starting to think it keeps going.