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OftenBen  ·  306 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 22, 2020

Something is going very wrong.

I don't know if its drugs, psychology or the extensive damage shingles did to my nervous system, but something is very wrong.

I feel as though I'm unraveling. Things that were coherent and reasonable now seem diaphanous and silly. I lose myself for hours in arguments with people determined to spread plague and harm others and literally am unable to stop until I've burned myself out. I miss meals, medication. It keeps me up into the wee hours of the night until the tranquilizers finally kick in.

I speak, English comes out, but not understanding.

I worry that this is how it feels to lose your mind.

Already discussed with my therapist. Just worried.