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OftenBen  ·  307 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 22, 2020

Something is going very wrong.

I don't know if its drugs, psychology or the extensive damage shingles did to my nervous system, but something is very wrong.

I feel as though I'm unraveling. Things that were coherent and reasonable now seem diaphanous and silly. I lose myself for hours in arguments with people determined to spread plague and harm others and literally am unable to stop until I've burned myself out. I miss meals, medication. It keeps me up into the wee hours of the night until the tranquilizers finally kick in.

I speak, English comes out, but not understanding.

I worry that this is how it feels to lose your mind.

Already discussed with my therapist. Just worried.





user-inactivated  ·  302 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Don't worry so much. I'm also batshit crazy. It I had to describe my life it would be "gained and lost some infinite thing."

Having a job I have to be at, even if it sucks is good for keeping me sane.

OftenBen  ·  302 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I dont have a job anymore.

It was taken from me.

I'm in the process of being kicked out of my Wow guild because I'm so tranquilized I fall asleep in raid.

user-inactivated  ·  302 days ago  ·  link  ·  

That's epic. LEEEEEEEROY JEEEEEEENKINS.

b_b  ·  307 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Not to overstate the obvious, but you may want to consider quitting the internet for a while. While it probably isn't the root cause of your problem, which could be entirely biochemical, it surely is exacerbating your issues.