Oh shit you guys, it just got real! Started advertising my senior project today-- check it.

(Background image credit to Hans Kylberg on Flickr, some rights reserved.)

I'm actually really excited for this, in contrast with literally everything else that I'll be doing for the next 2 months. So at least I have that ray of light, right? Also the whole college thing I guess

In other news, my romantic situation has reached relative stability, sort of. I have learned (by way of a couple friends) that the girl I'm interested in isn't interested in a relationship, and mostly everyone's advising me to leave that shit alone. So I've been continuing to flirt with her, enjoy her company, etc., and nothing more. I do, however, have one friend that's urging me to tell her how I feel-- I'm inclined to take his advice because my feelings have given rise to the foolish and unfounded hope that somehow we'll end up together again in spite of her current position. I can't say why he wants me to do it, and apparently neither can he, but that influence is difficult to ignore. Overall I just can't figure out what the right thing to do is; I waffle back and forth between thinking that I should, because the only reason I don't want to is cowardice, and that I shouldn't, because the only reason I do want to is blind wishful thinking. I thought paying attention to cognitive biases would help me avoid irrational actions, but as it turns out any decision I could make (at least in this situation) could be informed by shitty 'reasoning'. GAH