My 19th birthday is in a couple days (February 27th) and I'm at the loneliest I've ever felt, and I feel so guilty about it.

I just dropped out of college to pursue a dream of moving to Canada that might actually be achievable. I have some very good friends, the nicest people I've met after a couple of years of existance that have bothered to stick around and the couple others who I only talk to through messaging services but still have a decent impact on eachtother's lifes.

I've started going to a gym really close to my house that, for the first time ever, I can pay for myself since I've got a boring office job with good pay for an 18 year old.

I've lacked intimacy and the comfort of a lover's companionship for a good chunk of my young life (which would be around 2-3 years since I'm so young still)

I recently found Hubski after looking for reddit alternatives at work, and you guys are a really cool bunch. I love seeing all the travel blogs and articles on China and life experiences. The Oma and Opa stories really stuck to me. I hope to stick around for longer.