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kleinbl00  ·  2037 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 29, 2018

I wouldn't care so much except for the fact that every time I see a doctor for anything they weigh me, calculate BMI and then go "have you considered losing some weight?"

We literally had to have blood tests to get the loan on the business because our bank required life insurance to cover it in case me or my wife died. So some fat slob burnout Russian smelling of old cigarettes came by and said "you are fat. You lose weight." I was 187 at the time, a good 50lbs lighter than I am now. Same pants, by the way.

At one point I went to the goddamn doctor and said "if you guys are going to raise my rates because you think I'm fat you're fuckin' duty bound to help me lose weight." So they sent me to a nutritionist who told me to double my caloric input to 4000 calories a day.

I got down to 135 in high school through a grueling and uncompromising application of starvation and exercise bulimia. I looked like a concentration camp victim. But then, that was when I had the best self-image. Which is where you begin to recognize that you have an unhealthy relationship with food.

And then you go try to talk to a psychologist about it and they hear "eating disorder" and explain that there isn't a mental health professional in the land that will treat you outpatient for insurance reasons. Want to feel better about sharing a BMI with Dennis Rodman? Yeah, that'll be a 28-day stay with teenaged girls.