Thinking big is a fundamental source of conflict in my physical environment. Almost everyone around me fails to understand my points (though I am aware and am honest in acknowledging I have many obstructions to remove on my own behalf to better establish this self-centered understanding of such conflicts). Meditation has brought me as much pain as it has brought me peace of mind.

It's all relative to my environment. I am not a god, nor am i above having to eat, hydrate, and shit like everyone else on this planet, but a lot of people lose sight of the basics. In my development in the realm of self-reflection, I have found I was doing it far more than the majority of people at a young age. It has left me as an outsider, but I was relatively well insulated through the habit of self-reflection, though it came more in a critical perspective. Tweaking my mindset wasn't so challenging after I noticed how much harder I was making it for myself married to an objective-based resolve to everything. Nothing of much worth in life ever comes easy. This is a fundamental viewpoint to all the hair-brained conspiracy theory jargon that rewards me with the many a label... I digress.

  Anyone who takes a moment to study Chi Kung, or simply developing one's senses - maybe it starts with simply the breath... Will immediatly encounter resistance at some point.   I found it more often to be the strength of habit.  

Addressing oneself will never equate to others doing the same. We're all different... but we all need to eat, shit, and hydrate. Therfore: life is a struggle, no matter how you script it. People are going to flow -like water - down the path of least resistance, especially when the direction has been artificially constructed to avoid an obstacle. But hey, thats what followers do... all too well.