I am an ex-muslim.

I used to go to Quran school when I was in elementary school. I didn't think about why I was doing it back then. My friends did and my father was happy that I went.

I got hooked on games and lost interest in learning long texts. I liked the stories, but I was supposed to learn long texts, so I stopped going. No one was sad.

But it didn't stop there, with time, I started doubting what I was told at school (we all had mandatory islam classes). So I asked, how do you proof to me that god exists? The teacher got mad, called my father, told him that I am a non-believer and that he should school me more. Students at school took me right away to the library and showed me passages from the Quran that should prove to me that god exists. It sounded all so unlogical, but they wouldn't stop, so I made a decision... put on the face that they want to see, you will be gone soon.

I pretended to believe in god, and I still do whenever I go for a visit, it keeps me out of trouble.

This made my stance to religion, fath, and spirituality a negative one. Until I had an experience that I would define as spiritual, I took MDMA for the first time, and I had a feeling of connectedness with every single person in the room.

Of course this effect was due to massive amounts of oxytocin in my brain, so it was in a way "fake". But it was not. Knowing that I could have this feeling and even define it as something "spiritual" was proof enough for me that spirituality is something everyone carries with him.

I think that a spiritual experience is an intense and eye-opening experience. It varies from person to person (because we define what is spiritual for us and what is not).

For me, it has something to do with my feeling of being connected to other humans somehow.