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veen  ·  3736 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Hubski, what are you doing with your life?

    Do you know what you want to do in life? Is it okay to not know?

Yesterday I traveled back home by train. When I arrived and walked from the station home, an evangelist approached me. Normally, I politely ignore people approaching me but he asked me whether I thought I had a destiny in life. He meant whether God had a destiny for me, but my views on religion align with TAA's ideas and not with a deity so I said no.

I ended up having a nice philosophical mini-debate with the guy over the definition of God and the grandness of the cosmos but that opening question kinda stuck with me. Removing God from the equation, I took the question as 'do I think I have a goal in life' and I think that's very similar to the questions you're asking.

Frankly, I don't think I do. It is easy to look back at my life thus far and find a pattern, some kind of build up, as I've been lucky enough to see a rising trend in the quality of life. I know this year will be filled with more amazing experiences, perspectives and adventures than the last and I'm tempted to say it's building up to something great, my goal in life, but that would be a fallacy.

Which is not necessarily a bad thing. Life has endless possibilities, daunting at first but liberating in the end. I don't know what the hell I'll be doing in two years, but is that really that bad? While it is good to have a general idea of where you might want to go, I know I wouldn't be happy if I had a track laid down for me. A lot of friends of mine are in med school and are tied to at least 7 more years of school and at least 10 more to repay their loans. Suffocating, really: for them, the only barrier between now and the future is the passage of time. They get the comfort of a predictable future but at the cost of their liberty. Easier, yes, better? I think not. As long as I get to keep doing interesting / fun / amazing things, I'm good. That is the general direction I'll be heading, filling out the details as I go.