hmmm maybe? I feel like I'm getting there in terms of desperation. It might also be worth noting I have a feeding tube, so some harder heavy lifting jobs are just impossible for me. I would ideally love a receptionist type office job, despite my extensive experience with web marketing...

I'm glad you like it. She has another one that just makes me melt. Unfortunately, no one will ever get to hear it because it's tied up in contracts with producers and A&Rs who will not agree to release it :(.

If inquiring minds want to know - I can tell you how her and I became very, very, very, very, very good friends! ;-). Just let me know. I'll probably tell the story anyway when I have more time :-P.

As for the Lymphoma, the MRI didn't show anything of the sort. So yay no cancer. However my liver is enlarged and that might be the source of some of my discomfort. I need to follow up with a liver specialist but, I can't seem to get into the preferred one till Mid-December. So, I'm trying to find someone else who has comparable skills.

& As for my writing, Thank You so much, I really appreciate it. Unfortunately, I've only worked as a ghost writer so I do not have anything published that is worth sharing. I am however, working on a chronic pain blog. I haven't bought the domain name yet, I've just been slowly working on the content piece of it.

I always knew I'd get another dog. However, I wasn't going to do it right away and I didn't. Not until 5years later when I fell in love with the pile of fluff I have now.

To be honest, getting your degree is a really good idea. It's OKAY to not know what you want to study. I changed my major from Liberal Arts to Art History before finally settling on Geography of all things.

For me Geography was perfect - I took the Human/Cultural Route with it versus the technical mapping. It was an arts degree that brought together anthropology, sociology and a bit of psychology as well as a touch of history all into one place.

So I got to take a lot of cool classes that would do things like talk about Edward Snowden or China's Censorship or Nature and Human Kind and so forth. Stuff that I aas already reading about and engaged in online.

The funny bit?

I got into it by accident. After really disliking my Art History major, because it sucked the fun out of art for me; I didn't want to take extra course load just to graduate.

I found out that Geography fit my credits perfectly and decided instead of taking a particular winter term off, that I would go ahead and take the basic core requirements and then maybe swap my major or just stick out the Art History.

Turns out, I really enjoyed the basic core requirement courses and actually graduated with a degree I appreciated.

One piece of advice my dad gives me all the time that I have trouble to this day following, but still think is excellent advice is that:

When you're facing a problem that seems difficult or unmanageable and have an insistent need to fix it that very second, don't. Sit back, accept that you have a problem and sit with it. Let some time pass before you do anything or make any major decisions because in 3 days or less you will have more information and things change/look differently.

Also, you've had it rough! Dealing with so much from depression to partying to drugs to your teeth issues is not easy and that needs to be acknowledged. I had it really rough through school too. My brother died Fall of what was supposed to be my final year at school. From there I dealt with a myriad of mental health issues surrounding his death and then I fell really ill with an unusual disorder that causes me to be on a feeding tube to this day.

I ended up being at school 3 extra years making me a 7th year senior. To be honest, it wasn't so bad. I was able to make lasting friendships from the start of my college career to the end of it. That has put me in touch with a few cool people who are alumni now, as well as current students & even a few freshmen even though, I've been an alumni for about 2.5years now.

Everything I went through gave me a good perspective too. Suddenly grades weren't so important, and I took the pressure off myself. If I had to withdraw and get penalized - I just would. If I needed a lighter load one term, I'd do take a lighter load. If I needed a term off - I'd take it. I stopped stressing about grades and although I'm pissed that my GPA is just shy of a solid 3.0 it was very freeing to not over worry about my grades.

I ended up failing a class even! The one on Edward Snowden of all things! Even that in its irritatingly special way was a good lesson in priorities.

I don't tell you all of this to just talk about me, there is a point here. I work best by example - so maybe you can pull something from my personal story that relates or connects to you and helps you get through this time in your life! :-).

Edit/PS: These types of real life issues are my favorite kind of Hubski posts! They're engaging and spark some cool personal discussion in my opinion. Makes everyone so much more human/normal.

Or Google Docs, which is amazing too!

I am really sorry to hear this. Reminds me of what happened to me 6years ago. My family dog, a gorgeous German Shepard, died less than 3 months after my brother did. Sometimes, I will miss the dog more than my brother! It's crazy how connected to your pets you get.

Now I have a ball of love. He's not even a dog. Just a ball of love. I got him back in October after being 5years without a pet.

Anyway, I'm really sorry to hear this and feel what you are going through. I'm open to talk if you so want to. I know a bit about pet grieving, sometimes a little perspective on that helps too.

You know 'cuz test posts are for those important things in life....

Woooooooo!

This is awesome. I got some Sinatra for my phone. Typically, I prefer using Amazon's prime music selection because there is just so much with my subscription, but getting that to work properly on my phone can be so freaking difficult!

EDIT: I'm also guilty of getting Britney Spears and Destiny's Child because I am THAT person.

francopoli exactly, this. I don't disagree with you at all. It all needs to just die in a fire. I like that phrase. I should use it more. Perhaps on another site that shall not be named, because those users do not contribute useful content. / end total rant of everything wrong in the world.

Seriously, I think because they present themselves as a tech giant they might get a lot of private investing but, they are almost no better than a crazy taxi cab company gone wild!

I 100% agree that the model needs to be fixed and simply saying that it is a lot better than the taxi cab monopolization/industry is not enough. They need to behave like a real company and have real benefits and treat their drivers right vs. working them so hard with unrealistic expectations.

With that said, I do love the Uber service. I personally do not drive for some personal reasons and it has literally saved me from having to use the bus system which, in the cities I live and am in-between that is a huge lifesaver!

Ya. I feel ya. I got virtually the same response when I submitted posts I had made about my own serious medical condition. I submitted what I thought was the real me but, could not agree with some of the points made... I think you are very right - differents states of mind and different writing pieces like from my blog vs. forum posting will lead to very different results!