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nil  ·  13 minutes ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ignore the Pressure to be Productive During This Crisis

Productivity just for the sake of being productive is pointless, yes. I don't have kids yet though. The fundamental difference between me and my brother is I have creative hobbies and he doesn't. I need to create things, even if they suck. It's just the way I'm wired. He's chill with playing League of Legends 14 hours a day. He's nearly Master-tier, but still. I get bored of video games after 2 hours or so.

I think there's a fundamental value in art. If it's bad you can work harder and make it better, unless you're truly uncreative and have nothing to say. I don't do it to impress people, I do it because I feel compelled to do so. And trust me, I don't enjoy that fact. There's nothing harder to monetize than music, although girls like it.

nil  ·  19 minutes ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ignore the Pressure to be Productive During This Crisis

I personally believe if you aren't truly passionate you won't do it. I am semi-good at music but I did in in between high school and university and working 30 hours a week. Why? I enjoyed it. It brought meaning.

    Often it's not going to be fun, even if its something you love

This is the statement I fundamentally disagree with. I'm sorry, but I spent 11 hours straight making a beat, forgetting to eat and believe me it was fantastic. Not everyone is creative but saying "doing what you love" is mostly shit is fundamentally wrong, and some Biblical shit. The main challenge is earning a living until you can monetize your passion, not being Good Will Hunting and shitting on everything.

nil  ·  21 minutes ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ignore the Pressure to be Productive During This Crisis

    I think there's a lack of context at play as well. WHY. WHY does the world need your album. What is your album's place in the world when you don't know what the future looks like.

Hey man, I don't make music because I want to. I make music because I fucking need to. If it sucks or doesn't serve a social purpose that's on me but there are certain things people are passionate about that they feel compelled to do. Nobody needs Civilization IV but people will buy it. And that's taxes that fund life-sustaining initiatives.

nil  ·  1 hour ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: There will be bread.

Eh, the government couldn't give a rat's ass about psilocybin. I used to be paranoid about getting caught with drugs when I was in high school, truth be told they'd probably ask if I had any extra. Nobody cares unless you're making money off of it.

No such thing as bad publicity.

nil  ·  2 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 1, 2020


nil  ·  13 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: demure attempts to make piroshkis

Not bad. Mushrooms are a good filling though I've never had onions as well. My dad invited me over to get some but I have the whole self quarantine thing going on.

nil  ·  14 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Mindfulness Conspiracy

I will say that Buddhism is often presented as being a much more practical religion as there are skills you can master. Seeing that turned on its head is eye-opening. Thanks for sharing.

nil  ·  17 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ignore the Pressure to be Productive During This Crisis

I'm not sure how to interpret this comment. You may disagree but I've met truly lazy people and they aren't worried about being productive, believe me. I sense maybe you're reading other people on their grind as a signal to yourself. The signals I'm getting everywhere are "stay home and vegetate completely."

nil  ·  20 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Ignore the Pressure to be Productive During This Crisis

IMO the pressure to be productive isn't an external pressure, it's an internal pressure. I want to be productive because I have an abundance of free time and frankly, it beats getting hammered.

nil  ·  20 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 1, 2020

1. Likely

2. No

3. No

4. Had to self-quarantine. Hours cut for everyone else. EI not coming through. Still making rent but shit's going to be awkward if benefits don't come through sooner or later.

nil  ·  23 hours ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: This Is Not the Apocalypse You Were Looking For

I'd write a punk song about conspiracy theories but you have to do it in a roundabout way. You have to describe the character without getting excessively political, cause that's just embarrassing. Need some kind of psychological profile but I haven't interacted with anyone like that IRL in forever. Last guy I remember I was sixteen and working at a Domino's or some shit and one of my managers was telling me 9/11 was an inside job.

    Nobody loves me

    Somebody loves me

    But Nobody loves me

    Taxes are coming

A bit low effort. My old band had a song called "wasted potential" which was kinda.... like this but we didn't have lyrics. Fuck I need to dredge that up. I'm picturing this character slowly losing control over their life until even the slightest things are enough to piss them off. Cashier is a dick. Cashier is a different colour. Slowly becomes racist. Eventually becomes delusional.

Right now I'm trying to finish "happy birthday, dad." Not because I genuinely have daddy issues but because I got the phrase "son, are you coming over to watch the game?" and thought it'd be funny af to include after a metalcore-esque breakdown.

nil  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: This Is Not the Apocalypse You Were Looking For

Eh, owning guns is whatever. I was more referring to the dude with 96,000 rounds in his fallout shelter. Two years of canned goods, and satellite internet to intercept Alex Jones 'cuz terrestrial channels will be full of disinfo after the collapse.

Holy hell, I need to get back to trolling r/conspiracy. r/collapse too.

nil  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: This Is Not the Apocalypse You Were Looking For

The only cogent point I could find in any of this was "reality is not like a disaster movie." Except this situation is far from a nuclear wasteland or a zombie apocalypse. Once someone breaks into your apartment with an ice hatchet you'll have plenty of opportunity to become Bruce Willis, although you probably won't want to. The only people who do were already stockpiling ammo.

nil  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: This Is Not the Apocalypse You Were Looking For

    This is because late capitalism has always been a death cult. The tiny-minded incompetents in charge cannot handle a problem that can’t be fixed simply by sacrificing poor, vulnerable, and otherwise expendable individuals. Faced with a crisis they can’t solve with violence, they dithered and whined and wasted time that can and will be counted in corpses. There has been no vision, because these men never imagined the future beyond the image of themselves on top of the human heap, cast in gold. For weeks, the speeches from podiums have suggested that a certain amount of brutal death is a reasonable price for other people to pay to protect the current financial system. The airwaves have been full of spineless right-wing zealots so focused on putting the win in social Darwinism that they keep accidentally saying the quiet bit out loud.

    Social democracy is being reinstated in a hurry, because—to paraphrase Mrs. Thatcher—there really is no alternative. In the US, states are scrambling to support the 3.5 million workers who filed for unemployment in a single week. London’s homeless population, which had doubled in a decade, has been eradicated overnight. The National Health Service has run out of protective gear for doctors and nurses, and the British government has been too slow to restock—but a medical fetish porn site instantly donated its entire stock of scrubs and masks, because this is a big emergency, and we’re all doing what we can.

what the fuck is this article.

nil  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: It's the International Trans Day of Visibility. I'm Trans. Ask Me Questions?

To my understanding a difficult part of coming out as trans has to do with people you interact with that might not be supportive. A lot of it has to do with your appearance changing. Coming out as gay for example, none of your coworkers have to know that you're gay, unless they know somebody else that knows.

Was it a challenge transitioning in places where you have to interact with people you aren't close with like work, school, etc.?

nil  ·  1 day ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Mindfulness Conspiracy

That's a very good assessment and I would agree. Only gripe: I have found even eastern Buddhist sects are largely doing the same thing. When I was a full Buddhist for two years, following the precepts, meditating for nearly an hour every day I used to listen to the Dharma talks by Ṭhānissaro Bhikkhu and he would sing the praises of the late king of Thailand Bhumibol Adulyadej whose reign was characterized by human rights abuses.

    It is much easier to exert power over someone who simply accepts the unhealthy dynamic and internalizes blame.

The message of Buddhism is that all suffering comes from the individual and only by following the single path up the mountain will you achieve enlightenment. And you can always go deeper - if you're still suffering it's time to renounce and become a monk. I wanted to go to a retreat and my parents thought I had joined a cult, heh. I've had this problem myself trying to figure out where the boundary is between having unreasonable expectations or genuinely deserving the chance to scream into the wind.

I recognize changing the world itself is extremely difficult but when one's expectations are extremely modest, for example, I should be able to be LGBT, or I should be able to choose which industry I want to work in (provided I have the requisite skills and education), and that's enough to drive people up the wall, yes, you should fight back and carve out a path for yourself. When my "art friends" from my childhood called me at one in the morning and told me to "accept it" I knew they weren't so artistic and I was going to need to find a new group.

nil  ·  2 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Hungary passes law that will let Orbán rule by decree

I couldn't think of a shittier excuse to seize total political power. This is literally the Reichstag fire 2.0

nil  ·  2 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Big Money Salvia is here to help us make it through

That defeats the purpose of internet trolling. Nor is it exactly funny. I mean sure, let's make light of the epidemic all we want and relax and enjoy ourselves right?

I troll people on Twitter but it usually involves saying shit like "there is no God" not bragging about how I'm spreading the virus that's going to kill thousands. This whole channel doesn't make any sense.