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buteos  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Kenosha Shooting Suspect Was In The Front Row Of A Trump Rally In January

Ah. I see. So when we submerse ourselves in a culture of violence, and violence erupts, we should never consider the role culture plays, cause obviously there's no connection. Great talk. Glad we revisited it. Wonderful trip down memory lane. Clearly no need to ever do it again.

buteos  ·  61 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: The Kenosha Shooting Suspect Was In The Front Row Of A Trump Rally In January

Do you remember this conversation? I do. I think about it a lot, and it frustrates me, because I don't feel like I was listened to and given the chance to explain my thoughts. Instead I was ridiculed. What I was trying to express in that thread, poorly, because I don't often express myself well, is that even if there isn't a direct correlation between violence in the media and violent activities, it's still important to pay attention to the stories we tell, the messages we send.

Whether we're talking comics, or movies, or music, or video games, or whatever, we create powerful images. Powerful messages. They shape us, they influence us, and when we're not careful and self aware, we often don't realize it.

We are now witnessing a genaration of young adults, from teens to mid-30s, who have been exposed to games like Call of Duty and Battlefield, a sophisticated military recruitment campaign since 9/11, movies like "BlackHawk Down" and "The Hurt Locker" and "American Sniper," a complete glorification of the anti-hero "The Punisher" that has been completely transformed by Garth Ennis' Marvel Max Title to the point where his insanity and ultraviolence have been turned into virtues, and so much more.

I don't need you to agree with me, but I want to revisit this concept and hope you can see where I was coming from. I want to say, growing up and now more than ever, I see so many white good old boys just itching to play soldier and I think the stories we tell each other are very much to blame and I want you to understand why I feel this way. We live in a world of anger and frustration and violence and confusion and lack of self awareness and when we're not careful, video games and movies and comics all just add fuel to the fire, because people are impressionable, always have been, always will be, and when we don't have positive images to guide us, we become the garbage we consume.

Nonono. They're the exception to the rule cause they're a totally magical company that'll eventually turn a profit and then corner the market cause once they start making money, every other car manufacturer will be made irrelevant over night. It's bound to happen any day now.

::Gets all handwavy::

The inflation is found in stock values.

buteos  ·  62 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 26, 2020

I did for a little bit. At first I found him to be funny and refreshing, but after a while his consistent crassness kind of turned me off. That said, I definitely understand his appeal and I'm really glad he's able to reach out to and inspire so many people, even if he and I have different philosophical approaches to nature. His passion is infectious.

He and you and everyone else is right about being outside being good for mental health. I mean, yeah, there's papers and studies that say so, but just go outside and pay attention to your mood and the proof is right there in front of you. That said, August has not been a good month for me getting outside, between work and the heat keeping me away. I can't believe I'm saying this, because summer used to be my favorite season, but I'm really looking forward to fall and winter hiking. Those seasons are a lot less taxing on the body.

buteos  ·  62 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 26, 2020

there's this game show, I seen bits of it while channel surfing, it has Wayne Brady as a host and people in costumes and it's just not that interesting really but kind of fun to watch for five minutes once a month or so. Anyhow, they have people pick behind doors and sometimes people pick the wrong door and behind the door is a pile of garbage, maybe a busted car hauled from the junkyard or something, and it's supposed to be a non-prize. I wonder if a contestant has ever actually said to Wayne Brady "You know, in my spare time I make sculptures out of found objects. I know that's supposed to be a joke prize, but can I take that pile of garbage home? I could actually put it to good use."

My friend was telling me about a new brand of jeans they fell in love with. They wanted to give me a coupon to order some if I was interested. After they told me more about the brand, I said "No thank you. I've all but sworn of synthetic fibers." Which ten or fifteen years ago, might have sounded weird, but I'm glad I have friends who understand exactly what I mean when I say that and why and are cool with that.

Had job interview with an awesome garden center went really well in that the owner and I shared really good vibes, were able to just kind of chat, and it was more like a friendly coffee conversation (without the coffee) than an actual job interview. I really liked them and I like the place more now. Unfortunately, they just don't have a spot where I'd fit in. They'll hold my resume for spring hiring and I told them if anything comes up even before then, I'm game. Don't really got a lot of hope about it though.

Silver linings seem a bit thin and elusive these days, don't they? I think on my next day off work, I'm gonna go bird watching and maybe think about how if I can't find them, I can go about making a few.

Stay beautiful Hubski. Maybe make some silver linings of your own this week.

buteos  ·  62 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Some thoughts on compassion

I agree. The only thing I add is that intentions, and making your intentions known, can mean a lot. I think it's a lot easier to forgive mistakes people made out of good will.

Every now and again there's an article that says the dollar is gonna lose its place as the dominant global currency. Sometimes people say cause of the rise of China, sometimes people say cause it's tied to Oil and Oil isn't gonna be around forever, sometimes people just kind of wave their hands and say cause nothing lasts forever. I don't know how accurate any of those predictions are (though I put most faith in number three, cause really, nothing lasts forever), but does something like this help or hurt the dollar on the global scene?

Edit: For clarification, I don't know enough about global currency either to know whether or not it's really all that important who's on top. Though I'm assuming, being an American, having the American Dollar on top benefits me in some ways I'm unaware of.

buteos  ·  64 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Sunday Pandemic Doomscrolling Roundup

Within the past six weeks, a third of my co-workers have left their job (Edit: Maybe a quarter. I don't know. I suck at math.). Some formally quit, most just stopped showing up for work. I can't blame them. In fact. I'm genuinely happy for them. I actually had a co-worker show up about an hour late the other week and when they came in I pulled them aside and said, jokingly but seriously, "I'm not disappointed you're late. I'm disappointed you showed up." I was kind of hoping they said "screw it" and left too. Found out later, that person is job hunting. Found out later than that, about another third all have half a foot out the door and as soon as something comes up, they're gone.

With the exception of a couple who left for greener pastures and better pay though, they're all leaving because they'd rather deal with financial uncertainty than continue to work in that pocket of hell. These are people without formal work education, college degrees, marriages to support them, etc. They are literally ghosting my employer, during a pandemic, during a recession, where every day is full of unknowns and for each job opening they're competing with tons of other people. The fact that they're so fed up that they're willing to risk the rain and the flood of the wilds instead of staying at their job? I mean, that speaks volumes about how just absolute garbage that place is, toxic work environment and all. I'm so happy for all of them. They know the game is a joke and they're not gonna play it. They have balls I don't.

Me? I'm still there. I hate that place so much. It just fills me with anger and resentment and frustration and I don't know what else. Like I think about that place and all the absolute garbage that goes on and I just have this negative energy, makes me feel like getting in a fist fight with a grizzly bear seems like some rational thing to do. You ever get that mad? You think of a grizzly bear and you have this energy and you think "Yeah. I'm about to make this dude regret waking up this morning."

We can't keep living in a world where we make each other feel like this and convince ourselves that the problem is gonna go away if we just wait it out, wait for someone else to come along and fix it.

I mean, here's you and me and veen and who ever else might come along talking about compassion and yeah, that's important, but more than compassion I'm just looking for some sense of humanity in all of this and you see it in shelters and foodbanks and charities and that's wonderful and all, but we shouldn't have to live in a world where these organizations play a prominent, central role.

This is hell.

buteos  ·  64 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Some thoughts on compassion

    I have a love-hate relationship with this article, as I also have a love-hate relationship with most forms of what I think I can call "holistic thinking". The kind of thinking that extends compassion and love to everyone and everything. I love it on paper, but it's just not that easy in practice, and that part is usually conveniently stepped over.

Understanding the importance of compassion and the desire to embrace existence in a compassionate manner, does not erase our flaws. We still get tired, angry, confused, selfish, and continue to be otherwise just plain old humans. That's part of the point though, to see and understand and forgive ourselves for our flaws, so we can work through them and improve ourselves as human beings. In doing so, we can see and understand and forgive the flaws of others, and in doing so, through compassion and love and friendship, help them work through theirs. Sometimes we have to focus more on ourselves than others though and that's okay. Sometimes we have to know that someone or the situation another is in is beyond us too and that sucks, but we can only do so much. And sometimes, people just don't want to be helped, and that also sucks, but when that's the case, there's no helping until they're ready.

    You can search enlightenment and embrace the universe & each other all you want, but if it's not actually making you a kinder and better person then what's the point really? What do you have to show for? Do you just feel better or are you actually doing better things because of that perspective?

If you don't act on what you believe, how can you know you really believe it? If you do act on what you believe, but only when it's easy or convenient, how can you know you really believe it? If you do act on what you believe, even when it's hard, even if you fail and chastise yourself for it, well that's taking steps in the right direction.

Either way, actions mean more than. What we do, as individuals, shows more about us than our words ever will, both to ourselves and to the world watching us. Maybe we all oughta talk a whole lot less and do a whole lot more, and in the process, find that when we act with an intent for compassion, it just has a way of bringing itself out.

buteos  ·  65 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: 396th Weekly "Share Some Music You've Been Into Lately"

Justin Townes Earle died today. His music was one of my gateways into country music. First song of his I ever heard was a live version of "One More Night in Brooklyn" live for some concert on NPR. Second song of his I ever heard was "Harlem River Blues" and I just kind of fell in love. It's gonna suck knowing he's not around.

buteos  ·  68 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

The 305 in my El Camino ran like a top. The alternator, distributor, radiator, and a bunch of other do-hickies on the other hand . . .

Project cars are money pits. I know this. That said The Tercel sold for less than three grand. If there wasn't an impending economic apocalypse, that's a pretty decent starting point leaving enough financial room to make a mistake or two.

buteos  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

Why did you have to remind me that this awesome website exists? It fills me with "wants" and "gimmes" and nothing even extreme. I mean, look, at less than $2,000 currently, I really, really want this Toyota Tercel.

Dala, baby, this car will fix 2020 for us, I just know it.

Have you ever heard of a book called "Braiding Sweetgrass" by Robin Wall Kimmerer? I really recommend it, it's more philosophical than it is scientific, but man, it's philosophy that everyone could use. Wholesome, neighborly, compassionate philosophy. It's quite good.

There's a chapter in there, where she talks about a study she did with one of her students. They were looking at a type of grass, I can't remember what kind (though it might actually be sweetgrass), and they had three different groups. The first group, they left untouched. The second group, they'd harvest bits here and there by cutting out the grass. The third group, they'd harvest bits here and there by pulling the grass out by the roots. What they found was, the grass that was left alone, didn't grow so well overtime. The other two groups of grass though? Flourished.

And you're right, prairies and forests often depend on wildfires to kind of reset them and facilitate growth. Unfortunately, due to global warming, some of these fires burn so hot now that they've become truly destructive, and instead of facilitating growth, they impede it.

buteos  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

    One of the things I hate about this timeline is the Aston Martin Lagonda I didn't buy in the early 2000s is now a $350k car, despite the fact that everyone acknowledges what an utter and total piece of shit it is.

I've talked with two different people before that both say they regret selling their Acura NSX's about a year or two before the prices sky rocketed.

I can't say I have any regrets, but the two special cars I came closest to buying was a used 2003 Mach 1 Mustang that I decided was way too much car for me and the guy at the dealership was overly aggressive in trying to get me to buy it, so I wasn't comfortable and a first generation Toyota Celica on Craigslist that I could have afforded to buy, but it was in no way a practical daily driver and buying it would have emptied my savings account.

To this day, I regret selling my El Camino, especially for so cheap, but you know, when rent is due in two days and your roommate at the time is unreliable, you gotta do what you gotta do. I loved that car. It was rusted and ugly and beaten up and barely ever worked, but it was awesome.

buteos  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

I love both the RX7 and MR2 for different reasons, but by '90s pay, they'd be just outside of my budget, much like the Z32 300zx (which like the Miata, came out in '89). Though of the three, I really like the RX7, cause it kind of has these classic '60s/'70s lines on it. I look at it, and it reminds me of the Toyota 2000GT or Jaguar E-Type. It's just got that low roofline, those sleek sidelines, and an engine compartment that really commands your attention.

I think what a lot of people don't see, that people who like cars often see, is past the faded paint and dents and rust. I think if a lot of people see a busted Lincoln or Toyota from the '80s drive down the road, they'd say "Whoever thought those cars looked good?" But if they saw the same car, sans dents, fresh paint, new windshield and headlight covers, they'd say "Oh, yeah. That's not bad looking." Well, usually. I mean, does anyone ever think of The Virage when they think of cool, memorable cars?

buteos  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 19, 2020

I don't care what anyone thinks, I whole heartedly believe that The Sixth Generation Toyota Celica and the pre-facelift SN-95 Mustang are some of the best looking sports cars to come out of the '90s. Even when they're faded, busted up, and rotting in someone's back yard, I still think they got lines to admire. "But buteos," you interject. "What about the NA Miata? That car holds up really well too!" You're right. It does. It truly, truly does. But it came out in 1989, so technically, it's an '80s car. Maybe you disagree that that's a disqualifier, and that's okay. I think we can all agree that The Fourth Gen Camaro looks ugly and GM should write us an apology letter for green lighting that design.

Got a new phone recently. Another flip phone. Somehow in the effort to try to copy the phone book from my old phone over to my new phone, the SD Card got corrupted. So now I have to copy everything over manually. It's a chore, but I'm okay with that. Interestingly enough, when I "downgraded" from a smartphone to a flip phone a few years back, the people at the phone store had zero poker face and were kind of baffled that I was making that choice. This time around though, they seemed to be pretty enthusiastic about getting me all taken care of and they all actually thought both the old phone I was getting rid of and the new phone I was getting were pretty nifty. Either they have different attitudes towards ludite tech, or they have much better poker faces. I think maybe the second, but I still appreciate it, it made for a more comfortable buying experience.

buteos  ·  69 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Bitcoins Are Being Tokenized on Ethereum Faster Than They Are Mined

    Being educated about something doesn't mean you endorse it


buteos  ·  70 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Bitcoins Are Being Tokenized on Ethereum Faster Than They Are Mined

    This is the fundamental idea behind Niall Ferguson's The Square and the Tower. He and Graeber are polar opposites; I always try to read the two of them back to back to balance out the angry radical leftist academic with a pompous self-assured right-wing academic.

Is that Niall Ferguson book pretty transparent in its bias and agenda? I ask because I think I might like to read it, because it appeals to me, but I also know immediately that it appeals to me because I think it'll validate some of my classist world views and I'm trying real hard to disabuse myself from such illusions and it's not easy, especially right now. The world is messy, now's not the time to feed personal beasts.