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littlebirdie  ·  4119 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: TNG Podcast: Change

Thank you so kindly for allowing me to participate in this podcast. I would love to participate in future ones, after others have had a chance, of course! It was fun - and difficult - thinking about change. Change is something we experience every day, isn't it? This weekend, in fact, was full of forced change, change I didn't like:

School starts today. I completed my very first semester of college this past fall, at the age of 47. It was wonderful, even better than I thought it would be. I've had a lifetime of raising children, of scraping by after my marriage imploded so many years ago. I never thought I would get the chance to go to school. And I did! I want to finish!

But! Thanks to breast cancer, thanks to unexpected medical expenses, thanks to missing several months of work due to cancer over last summer, I can't afford to go back to school today. I tried to sort it out, but I ended up spending my winter break selling some of my prized possessions on Craigslist. I hoped that I would get an increase in my scholarship money, but times are tight, and even though I have a 4.0, it didn't happen. So I'm withdrawing today. I can't work only parttime, attend school, and meet my bills. Wah.

I'm looking for a job that pays better than the coffee shop and have put together my resume. But employers want to see a college degree, want to see a fresher face. And so it goes. I hope to be able to go back to school in a year or two or three. My sons were so proud of me! But this is life in a human body on the planet Earth.

Change. It can verily suck. Yup.