If I offended you I'm truly sorry, it's never my intention. I understand where you're coming from and I respect what you're saying. From what you're saying, there appear to be many congruences between the aesthetic and spiritual mentalities. For one, skepticism should be big within a Christian person's spiritual journey. What I've been taught is that when we doubt our beliefs, we'll always end up back to the truth. I believe truth to be God, so my skepticism has always led me back to Him.
I'm not offended at all; sorry if I came across that way! Skepticism, in the sense of seeking your own answers in life, is always the best philosophy, in my opinion. Just FYI, I was raised in a Southern Baptist home, and I was a true believer, for many years.
Puberty, followed by University. Just kidding, sorta. I really just started questioning. I read the Bible all the way through, at about age 10, and realised that the infallibility of the Bible (a Southern Baptist tenet) was a joke, and soon after, I read up on how the KJ Bible actually came to be (I had access to a library). More or less, I just didn't believe any more. It was pretty traumatic personally for a short while, but eventually I could not continue to pretend (to myself) that I still believed.
Hmm, very very interesting. You and myself are very opposite one another. Anytime I realize I'm straying, I eventually get back on a spiritual path by realizing what I'd consider to be the "error of my ways," if you will.