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Foveaux  ·  235 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 5, 2023

I took up meditation every morning specifically to combat my anxiety (at the time, crippling). Sure enough it was 2016/2017, and there were so many apps floating around. I used Headspace for a year, the guy's voice was easy to listen to. But after a certain period I just didn't need the instruction anymore.

Positioning myself outside to look in, I think I need to pick it back up again.

Devac  ·  235 days ago  ·  link  ·  

And I'm glad it worked for you. Note that I don't deny any effect, just that most accounts were wildly overstated and done on 'dopamine high' of overall improved mood; cf. the whole nofap crowd where your average NEET stopped yankin' it every five minutes for three days and proclaimed themself Son Goku, PhD. ;)

I feel meditating does something positive for me, but think it's just a type of mental priming. Kinda like making your bed in the morning may give you the illusion of beginning your day with a small accomplishment, so it's easier to muster some confidence going into other task in the day. My problem was that either nobody bothered explaining this stuff beyond telling me which app they use or 'explained' in such a handwavy way it made alchemical treatises look like a model lab journal in comparison. The real change in my life was brought by quetiapine and therapy. I also recently got in touch with a place that does ketamine treatments, though I'm undecided about messing up the good thing I have going.

Excuse frustration, but I hope you can understand where it came from.

Foveaux  ·  234 days ago  ·  link  ·  
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