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c_hawkthorne  ·  604 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 24, 2022

School started back up today. Have no classes Monday and Thursday, but two online asynchronous classes that I'll be working on during those days. But it's the last year of school (hopefully forever). Thesis stuff slow going, apparently IRB is super backed up, 2+ months for review. So I can't start for a while yet. Work still sucks, nothing new there.

Girlfriend had a wedding a little north of my parents' house so we drive up there together and she kept going north and I stayed with the family. When she came back down she was trying to meet up with a friend of her's and didn't know when exactly she'd be back and my mom told me I needed to call my girlfriend and tell her she wasn't allowed to see her friend. I set that boundary hard that I'd never do that and my mom got super pissy as she does. So that was fun to deal with. My dad, while on my side for that one, said that he and my mom view a pattern of disrespect from me which I see as boundary setting, but they don't respect my boundaries so it makes sense they see it as disrespectful. But as a consequence they're likely going to stop helping me financial in the same way they have been, so I get to really dip into savings with the power combo of inflation, stock market downturn, tuition owed beyond student loans, aging out of insurance, and the end of the student loans payment pause (end of December this year), so I'll probably get the luxury of selling off old investments at the market bottom but should do it this year since next I'll have income so taxes will be cheaper this year. So that'll be fun. But I should be able to dip into just the brokerage account and not the retirement accounts (having a financial advisor father actually proved useful I guess).

Therapy going well, my therapist is a good fit. After a lot of talking and exploring of shit that has happened in my life we're starting to explore how it's impacting me and tools to combat it. I'm cautiously optimistic. But by this time with my last therapist I was on a hard downward spiral and I'm actually feeling good and even looking forward to it a bit which I take as a good sign.

In an attempt to be more attentive and hack my attention span back to being good and focused, I've blocked my big time wasters (reddit, hacker news) in my apartment through pihole and deleted the apps from my phone. Going to hopefully read more, but also just hoping to focus better on everything. It's only been a few days so far but it's been nice. Hope I get more used to it and it proves fruitful.

9 more months of this educational hell and then I'm free, making money again, more independent, have more free time. It can't come soon enough.