life update: i'm on the spectrum i graduated from uni i've been doing voice training with a speech therapist and i no longer sound as much like a man i found some antidepressants that work alhamdulillah i moved into a 1bd 1bth apartment with my boyfriend and it's a hell of a lot nicer than where we used to live i started writing again and have made incredible progress on the third complete overhaul/revision of a conlanging project i've been working on for like 4 years at this point, it's finally coming together like how i envision it in my head, and despite it being the least important thing i could possibly be doing with my time, it's also the thing i feel the most proud of and that brings me the most happiness day to day - being able to find happiness in something creative more than once in a while is new to me i wrote a tanka a while ago that i thought was kinda cute and it's a good summary of what's going on right now in my life crust: packages, tissues, dirty laundry piled up, wet hair in the sink outside winter turns to spring tomorrow i clean my room