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_refugee_  ·  1456 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: April 1, 2020

It annoys me so much to talk about feelings, and that means that right now, most of my feelings are generally negative.

My daily mood has been pretty good this week. I'm on a 7-day run streak. I feel like I have largely acclimated to the isolation, at least for right now. My sister essentially refuses to social distance. This is infuriating.

I am trying to use this time to really focus on myself, on eating clean and exercising and focusing. There is a lot of time available to everybody now and mostly I can use it productively. I have to gerry-rig the system to make myself do so successfully, but I know enough about the pulls and levers of the system that I can mostly make it so and I continue to try harder at it.

Work is work.

I have begun a search of local apartment complexes. I still expect to move out of here and living with my sister by late summer. I just don't think I'll be leaving the state.

One positive thing about this is how wonderfully clean my apartment is getting, which is really a sign of exactly how much time I'm here and covertly my level of tension. But at least it helps.





steve  ·  1456 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    My sister essentially refuses to social distance. This is infuriating.

as in, she's sitting close to you? or she's still finding excuses to go out and be around friends, etc?

_refugee_  ·  1456 days ago  ·  link  ·  

dude she went to basically a fucking party last night

her and her friends are sticking to the line of "as long as you go to gatherings of 10 or fewer people it's completely ok"(disregarding 6" of distance of course because if you're in a car with someone else you're not 6" apart and if you're sitting on a couch at someone else's random house you're not 6" apart and if you're making out with your boyfriend at the house he lives in with his mom YOU'RE NOT SIX FEET APART) and "your social circle can be as large as you want so long as you stick to the 10 or under rule for single gatherings" and she's going to freaking DRUG DEALERS houses of all places (yes i know, very famous for their cleanliness too right?) and "hanging out" and getting drunk and oh OF COURSE leaving the house to stay with her boyfriend every other night is a LIFE ESSENTIAL SERVICE

steve  ·  1456 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Ooof. Sorry ref. That’s the worst. Wishing you well on that front.

_refugee_  ·  1454 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I told her off about it, so she declared she was going to go back to social distancing. She made it until the evening, when she decided she wanted chick fila but didn’t want to go alone. I tell ya what, I never knew it could take 6 hours to get a chicken sandwich

I don’t want to be a parent, I’ve made my feelings clear and continue to do so, but also she is an adult. She ignored a job offer because she is making so much on unemployment. This really is who my sister is right now and I’m seeing it.

Man, I have really grown the hell up in the past 3 years. Now I’m the responsible one

Anyway, thanks for the space to vent. I needed to let it out somewhere and this isn’t exactly the kind of discussion I have with coworkers.

steve  ·  1454 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I've got a 19 year old son who is.... pushing limits, and social distancing is one. So thanks for venting - it's helping me sort through some of my thoughts and feelings.