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kleinbl00  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: Pubski: August 29, 2018

25 days to go.

I started the summer with a 38-book backlog in my Audible. I've added 8 books to that since. There are 8 books unread in my library now, 7 if you exclude the one I'm reading.

About 1am tonight I'm going to cross 9,000 miles on that bike. A friend asked me if I'd ever weighed it, gack and all so I got on the scale with it. Everything off the bike that doesn't require a wrench? 30.1 lbs. Ready to go to work? 50.1 lbs. I mentioned that I needed new brake pads. "Well yeah," he said. Your bike weighs fifty fuckin pounds."

I'm starting to realize that I'm... dense. Said friend is an inch taller than me, has a pot belly and weighs 185. My stomach is flat and in shorts and a t-shirt I outweigh him by 50 lbs. I'm starting to be okay with it because my daughter is also dense. She's far, far heavier than you'd expect but she's certainly not fat. Perhaps this is me making peace with it. Realizing that my rig weighs three times what the weenies who blitz by me without waving are riding is also good for my self-esteem.

Soon there will come soft rains. The air will be brisk, the coffee will be fresh and I will sleep in my own bed. My days will be filled with CAD and cutting fluid and things that tick.

veen  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I have a strict one-book-at-a-time rule. I know I'll be too tempted to leave a somewhat boring book unfinished if I have others to jump to.

I'm practically half air by now. Genes, man.

dublinben  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I've accepted that life is too short to continue reading books that I find "boring." There isn't enough time to finish all the ones I'm going to enjoy, so why waste time reading ones that I don't?

veen  ·  138 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I agree, but I get bored very easily. If I were to drop a book as soon as it starts to bore me I don't think I would have finished any of the books I've read in the past year.

kleinbl00  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I do one on Audible and another on Kindle. To be fair, like 4-5 of those books were $4.95 Audible purchases that I noped out of but yeah - like 33 books in two months.

goobster  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Fellow dense person here.

I was 175 lbs in high school, wearing 28-inch waist jeans. Every new doctor is perplexed when they weigh me. I can't count the number of times a doctor has weighed me, had me step off the scale, weighed me again, had me step off the scale again, weigh themselves, then weigh me again. They then shake their head, and write down the number, and tell me that the obesity charts and measurements do not apply to me.

I'm currently 230, and am mistaken for <200 usually. I can wear the same pants that my sub-200 friends wear (38-inch waist).

A lot of people try to transmogrify their fat into "heavy bone density", or some such bullshit.

The reality is that some of us weigh more. Some less. Welcome to the club.

kleinbl00  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I wouldn't care so much except for the fact that every time I see a doctor for anything they weigh me, calculate BMI and then go "have you considered losing some weight?"

We literally had to have blood tests to get the loan on the business because our bank required life insurance to cover it in case me or my wife died. So some fat slob burnout Russian smelling of old cigarettes came by and said "you are fat. You lose weight." I was 187 at the time, a good 50lbs lighter than I am now. Same pants, by the way.

At one point I went to the goddamn doctor and said "if you guys are going to raise my rates because you think I'm fat you're fuckin' duty bound to help me lose weight." So they sent me to a nutritionist who told me to double my caloric input to 4000 calories a day.

I got down to 135 in high school through a grueling and uncompromising application of starvation and exercise bulimia. I looked like a concentration camp victim. But then, that was when I had the best self-image. Which is where you begin to recognize that you have an unhealthy relationship with food.

And then you go try to talk to a psychologist about it and they hear "eating disorder" and explain that there isn't a mental health professional in the land that will treat you outpatient for insurance reasons. Want to feel better about sharing a BMI with Dennis Rodman? Yeah, that'll be a 28-day stay with teenaged girls.

goobster  ·  142 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Have you ever done one of those immersion BMI tests? Apparently it is way more accurate than the weight-divided-by-height shorthand. I hear it is more accurate for us Dense Types.

kleinbl00  ·  142 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I have heard a nutritionist lament that her employer did not have such facilities on-site or in-plan and inform me that if I wished to spend $250 out-of-pocket she could make inquiries. This would not, of course, have any impact on the "I see that you're fat. Do you feel properly ashamed?" dialogue that opens all health discussions.

I went to the Bastyr clinic once with foot pain when running. The student, an earnest young lady, took down a bunch of notes about exercise and diet. Her supervisor, an instructor, walked in a half hour later, glanced at my chart and said "Huh. You're about 50lbs overweight. Try diet and exercise" and walked out without so much as looking me in the eye. The next time I came in I brought the pedal I had broken off the exercise bike at the health club (RIP Mieko's you cheap piece of shit) to ask if she had any other suggestions.

She refused to see me and insisted I transfer care. Bummer for the student.

francopoli  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

    I'm starting to realize that I'm... dense.

When I was done working in Alaska I was 190lbs. I have pictures from that time where my ribs are visible and I have exposed and very noticeable hip bones. 32" pants. The BMI chart says i should be 170. That ain't gonna happen. I'd be a walking skeleton at 170.

Have you ever been swimming in fresh water, like a pool? Do you float or sink? I sink. When I went through the safety crap on the ship I learned that there are different grades of life vests based on what floats you. I needed the second from the top to float me without treading water.

goobster  ·  142 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Oooh! That's interesting!

The only time I have EVER floated, was in the Mediterranean... very high salinity, so greater buoyancy.

kleinbl00  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

I was a husky kid and I floated. Then I became bulimic and I sank.

Now I bike 150 miles a week. I sink like a stone.

kleinbl00  ·  143 days ago  ·  link  ·  

Also fuck Sunlite. I had a damn innertube, like, give up this week; they totally go from 85 psi to like 80 in the course of 30 miles but this one went to 40 because it's too busy being emo or some shit.

I go through an innertube every thousand miles. Like, I literally change the fuckers more often than I replace my deodorant and when you bike 150 miles a week through the goddamn desert and shower 2-3 times a day you burn through some deodorant.