I imagine that very, very many of your interactions these days are with strangers. And that can be fine, but spending too much time away from one's household/community and loved ones really grinds a person down. I'm sure you feel that acutely. But maybe you have to disappear a little in order to build something bigger than yourself? Or maybe that sense of fading, if it doesn't swallow you, acts as a motivator to make a lasting mark. I dunno. It's tough to balance. You're building something huge, though! Onward!
I'ma start using "Dorito" as my new signifier for greatness. It is, after all, the ultimate snack