Thanks, TNG. This was a tough one to make both in terms of subject matter and stylistics- didn't feel right masking the vocals in a bunch of layers and effects because it made it sound too fortified. But it's tough for me to just let the voice stand out above the mix, esp. when the lyrics are so brutal. Really glad you like it. It's one of my Doritos too. Lyrics as follows:
Looking into the darkness, is this all that a life is
series of bad decisions, in and out of remission
driving back from the hospital I see the kids in the
park on the benches, smoking
cigarettes in the sunlight-
what's that ahead of you?
pushing my way into the crush of folks at the grocery-
tryn ta get to the parsley- no one here really knows me-
meeting eyes at the counter, looking for a connection:
"have you tried our new version?" I don't know how to answer.
all I want is a sign that I will be well-remembered
nothing can bring you down like talking to perfect strangers.
home again, maybe I should call my folks out in Portland-
how long now has it been since I've been out there to see them?
last time, I was a mess, I was dealing with the tail end
of a breakdown and taking pills to help in the morning
pills in the morning to keep me going
looking into the darkness, is this all that a life is:
in and out of the workplace, waiting for your vacation
like to think that my workmates find me easy to talk with
make a joke, keep your distance- gotta keep up relations
oh my god, how'd this happen? feels like I'm disappearing-
I had strength of conviction! focus, artistic vision!
meeting eyes at the counter, trying to make a connection:
"what'd you do with your weekend?" I don't care, but you know I'm
maybe I'll call my brothers, tell them all that I love them
thinking about the last time that we were all together.
I should water the plants and put them out in the sunlight-
this is all that we have now- blow a kiss, grow your garden