I have a chrome extension called Facebook Eradicator that has an embarrassing number of quotes, of which an embarrassing number of quotes are from people commenting here on Hubski. There's one that I'm not gonna cycle through to find the exact quote. but it pretty much just says "It's possible to strive for self-improvement without thinking you're a piece of shit". Thanks, it's been helpful this week. I'm finally tackling on a redesign for a website that's been overdue. A lot of factors have gone into me being so stressed about it, but it's pretty much been due yesterday for all summer. 'How the fuck am I going to survive on my own' is the worst way to think about it, the better way to think about is, at least you're getting it done. I finally got over my imposter syndrome fueled fears of script kiddying and was able to figure out how to make a jquery plugin work on the world's fanciest squarespace designer. It turns out that all you have to do is pull your hair out for 4 hours and stay up until 6am so that you're not discouraged. This can't be healthy.
I'm not exactly sure how else to describe it, but Stay Focusd and I have a long, storied history. It doesn't help that I've always been a productivity freak. I forgot where I heard the phrase, but I think it fits me so well: anyone who uses creative solutions to motivational problems is directly competing against a version of themselves who is more motivated and more creative than they are. Am I talking myself out of installing it again? Yes. My therapist has been working on the process side for me a lot. This week he's encouraging me to see the to-do list in terms of tactics- like little chess puzzles, haha. It's a weird visualization, especially since I already get 'chess brain' visualizations already.