From what I recall in documentaries and past reading, Kurt tended to latch on to his lovers, seeking motherly care. Courtney seems like a girl who would use and abuse, and hell, with his own emotional instability, and just the general environment the two fostered, I bet shit got really dark. Throw ideals of attachment and devotion into that and this kind of "love song" seems about right.
I'd buy that. I recall reading that the line "I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black" was inspired by a documentary that he had watched about cancer. Not sure why that stuck in my head all these years. I just pulled this from his Wikipedia entry: He would be 44 now. IMO probably making great music that was quite different than Nirvana's.Dave Grohl stated that Cobain believed that music comes first and lyrics, second. Cobain focused, foremost, on the melodies of his songs.[55] Cobain complained when fans and rock journalists attempted to decipher his singing and extract meaning from his lyrics, writing "Why in the hell do journalists insist on coming up with a second-rate Freudian evaluation of my lyrics, when 90 percent of the time they've transcribed them incorrectly?"[56] While Cobain would insist on the subjectivity and unimportance of his lyrics, he was known to labor and procrastinate in writing them, often changing the content and order of lyrics during performances.[57] Cobain would describe his lyrics himself as "a big pile of contradictions. They're split down the middle between very sincere opinions that I have and sarcastic opinions and feelings that I have and sarcastic and hopeful, humorous rebuttals toward cliché bohemian ideals that have been exhausted for years."[58]
He was so far from fading away. I still cherish what he made and it's sad that it all had to destroy him so early. I think it would be exciting to see what he might be making today, although that thought sends me into inevitable fears of the decline and Christmas album of the Dylanesque artist.