Not much, honestly. There's a lot wrong with my body right now so I can't really run or do anything super physical or intense until a diagnosis is given. It's driving me fucking crazy because I should be running and working out but can't. At least there's a guitar next to me.
It's a lot to take in. I've never felt such a divide between my physical and mental entity. It's kind of like you're taking yourself out of your body when the two don't line up. It's kind of infuriating because I want to push through it and either break more or get over the hump, which is probably the absolute wrong attitude to have.
Yeah I identify with that a lot. The second piece of advice I got from my fitness consultant many moons ago was something to this effect. 'The primary reason people stop working out is injury. That's why proper form is so important in weightlifting, even more so than the actual amount of weight or reps. If you make yourself incapable of exercise through exercise, what's the point of even starting? Better to be a couch potato from the get go and skip all the hard work.' The first piece of advice he gave me was 'Show up. That's more than 50% of the effort.'It's kind of like you're taking yourself out of your body when the two don't line up.
It's kind of infuriating because I want to push through it and either break more or get over the hump, which is probably the absolute wrong attitude to have.