Not much, honestly. There's a lot wrong with my body right now so I can't really run or do anything super physical or intense until a diagnosis is given. It's driving me fucking crazy because I should be running and working out but can't. At least there's a guitar next to me.
It's a lot to take in. I've never felt such a divide between my physical and mental entity. It's kind of like you're taking yourself out of your body when the two don't line up. It's kind of infuriating because I want to push through it and either break more or get over the hump, which is probably the absolute wrong attitude to have.
Yeah I identify with that a lot. The second piece of advice I got from my fitness consultant many moons ago was something to this effect. 'The primary reason people stop working out is injury. That's why proper form is so important in weightlifting, even more so than the actual amount of weight or reps. If you make yourself incapable of exercise through exercise, what's the point of even starting? Better to be a couch potato from the get go and skip all the hard work.' The first piece of advice he gave me was 'Show up. That's more than 50% of the effort.'It's kind of like you're taking yourself out of your body when the two don't line up.
It's kind of infuriating because I want to push through it and either break more or get over the hump, which is probably the absolute wrong attitude to have.
Figuring out how to take control of my life again. I think I've ended up in the wrong place with where I am now. I walked away from research and academia thinking that I didn't like it and was done with it. I don't regret it though, it took going on the wrong path for me to realize what I really want, and what I'm good at. I could have continued straight into research out of apathy while being burnt-out, and I would have lacked focus and drive. I could also just stay put where I am and take the path of least-resistance and hope that I learn to like it, but I'd probably never feel fulfilled there. I needed a kick in the nads to get me to assess what I actually want to do and commit to it.
Probably something more meaningful than browsing the web for cool watches. The Swatch Sistem51 lineup looks really good, it's one of the few watch lineups with a clean design, a (semi-)continuous second handle and a visible mechanical build.
I should be doing my homework, and the only way that's going to happen is if I complain about it somewhere on the Internet. Ugh. Now I can get back to work. Thanks, mk. Edit: is there some Emerson reference or quote I'm missing?