I have an idea for a painting that's not a cat, superhero or Pokemon, like actual fine art, but I'm too scared of fucking it up to start.
There's a theory as to why kids learn new things so fast. Not just because of their brain's plasticity, though there's that. It's because they're unafraid of missteps. (All much easier doled out as advice than applied.) I'll tell you what, I'm keen to see your painting.
Feeling that I'm not good enough to do what I have in mind to be tactful. I'm also not trained as a painter. I want to do a series of everyday scenes in monochrome. Can I use the same color effectively to convey value? Will the detailing look like shit? Will I get it done and know it's unsuccessful anyway? Just a laundry list of anxieties that exist in my head without form but I typed a couple out for you.
Don’t mind the output, the process is the opportunity here. Be ok with the possibility that it will look like shit, or worse, just a bit shitty. You probably have something in your mind’s eye, but I would try not to think of it as a destination, just as a suggestion. I am not a trained painter. I consider myself good, but not yet great. My advice would be to paint the light. Resist objects and form, just paint the light.