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user-inactivated  ·  3060 days ago  ·  link  ·    ·  parent  ·  post: What Universal Human Experinces Are You Missing?

I've never experienced grief when people close to me died, nor when hearing about a close friend's possibility of having cancer. Most I went through could be vocalized as "Oh... (long pause) Huh".

In fact, all of my emotions are dulled - at least, that's what I believe compared to others. It's one of the reasons I'm having a really hard time figuring out what I feel and what might have caused it - the other being lack of experience in the department (which is growing to be less of an issue with confidence). I have had some mileage understanding my emotions by now and I'm able to put my finger on the name of the feeling in minutes rather than hours or days, but it seems to be a long way from what others are capable of.

It may be the reason I talk in a monotone: not that I'm incapable of it, but that it's a normal state of affairs for me; I only get varied vocal ranges when I'm agitated over something, like an argument over something important to me. It was always fascinating for me to hear people talk in varied tones all the time, which is part of the reason I'm loving hearing Markiplier's commentaries.

I do subvocalize, most often without noticing it. I realized clearly that I do this only recently, while reading Vladimir Pozner's Parting with Illusions: Pozner has a fascinating voice, and I'm been reading his book in his voice for fun.